Dramatically and traumatically.

hmm...well. As you know, today is the 2nd week of the GAP food fair and my respective stall to take care of is bubble tea just as same as last year. in fact, i chose it. Chose to wake up at 6 to the shop and help up, chose to volunteer uploaded the stuff to my car and drive my cell members to church. it's actually a very beautiful morning that i'm excited for BUT it ended up. sigh.

Just cut it short, cause i really don't have the mood to recall it one by one. And it's trauma to me. After i uploaded everthing on my car, as usual preparing to head to church bt something happened in just not more that 5 mins time. As i reversing my car, and just normal as usual after reversing, i change the gear to drive, and preparing to move on, but something should not be heard is passing to my ears. A very very loud "Beng"!! as i turn my head over and look what's happening, my tears rolled down, it's the chicken rice stall cabinet collapsed and lay it on my car boot. The sound is loud enough to alert the people on the street to get down their car and ran out their shop to take a look on what's going on. the sound is just like a whole building collapsed. Ans as i turn over my head, i 'll never forget the expression of the shop owner. Although, the stall is not hers, bt she is very very angry and streamed right to my face. and i just can't help bt could only said sorry. careless. i'm too too confident like usual. thought of nothing happened, as i reversed i heard no sound, bt...when i'm moving on, the cabinet collapsed and the glasses the all broken into pieces. My heart is also anxious till it's broken into pieces.

The shop owner requested me to let one of my members to stay over and help, bt the rest of us heading to church 1st. My mind just blanked. I don't know what to do, to agree or to...? I had no idea. As i drove, i kept on crying loud with anxiety and mixed feelings overwhelmed. ha, my cell members are really brave, and obedient. They just sat still and kept very quiet, i wonder will they be very scared to continue to sit on the person's car that the driver is so not calm and crying all along the road track till we reached church.

When i reached church, i really collapsed and burst into tears. Wendy, my very very caring leader came out and helped me in controlling my not so calm mood. As i still need to lead the cell in selling the stuff. bt i really...speechless. Cried and cried and cried in front of so many ppl, just in my don't care condition, cry till my satisfaction.just cried. No one understand, that kind of feelings, i guess only my Jesus will. none other than Him. Trying to grab someone and hug on that time bt no one still. only He can do it. wanted to cried over the phone to tell my dad how frighten i was, bt...i really have no energy to explain and i don't want him to get angry and worry about me early in the Sunday morning. So how? turn to God , what to do? So i started to pray in my heart and as i prayed, i became more comfortable in physical, mental and spirtual. This what only He can do it for me, my very very best comforter (: yup, felt better and returned to my stall to do what i supposed to do. After sometime, surprisingly, the news spread so fast to my supervisor,meiling, she walked towards me, encouraged me and give me the most i wanted and looked for-a hug. I really burst in tears like a small kids, helpless, and anxious.

Waited for the shop owner to come and settle the stuff, but when she reached, another surprise, her reaction changed 180 degrees!! She said :"It's just a small matter, don't worry, we will settle it after the peak hours and i need to go for Sunday survice now, we'lll discussed it later." I really shocked by her reaction. Changed. but, no only changed, Changed 180 degrees. Praise God, i think only Him will be able to do it. bt still, my trauma never leave me. I'm so afraid to drive now, the scenario flooded my mind, frighten. the glasses collapsed sound is too loud to remind me each time to drive carefully.

Pray for me la, let it be a real experienced lesson that taught by Him and draw even closer to Him not a situation that happened to conquer my entire driving life.

It's okay, it's just a ...cabinet. a barang. a stall. no human's life invoved. no injury nor death.

ha, ya, it has been a long long while since i posted the last entry. This time it's not that i have no time but it's just that i'm too lazy to write a few words here. haha, yup, just simply, laziness (:
6 weeks holidays just flied off like i took a flight to changmai, fast and quick, well, give a very brief idea of what am i doing and how am doing in this past few weeks, okay. hmm...

1. Watched lots of hongkong drama series and learnt cantonese. LOL. catched up the movies and drama series that i long to watch, such as prison break, cinderella man, 2 fast 2 furious, concerto love..etc.etc.etc...

2. Practised my grade eight piano scale, piece and oral skills at home. LOL. By God's grace, so far so good. i really hope to pass with merit (:

3. Helped up in childcare. Did some babysitting, play around with the lovely yet naughty kids (:

4. Gone through my skin treatment in MountE but unforturnately, it didn't turn it up well, so continue to pray for me ya (: fews more treatment to go!!

5. Visited and chilled out with my long-time-no-see friends. either sec schoolmate or my church friends. Yeah!awesome to spend time to catch up with each other and fellowshipped (:

6. What's more? Reading. I guess. Often borrowing books, magazines, CD and DVD. yeah, to nurture my intests and potential. hehe.

7. Learnt some of the photoshop skills and which i'm still on my way, and all i had to say is that i really hate software stuff le, i wonder how am i gonna survive in my engineering field.

8. Intensive training on my own bible reading or study. hehe. Hope i'll really continue on.

9. Practised my maths at home, so rajin right?

10. the last one, i slept all day at my darling nest. LOL xD

I actually have more things on plan bt just limited time for me to do. never mind i'll bring forward to my nxt vacation(: haha, it seem like the stuff that i talk is really not related to my topic of the day right? haha, okat, let me have my dinner 1st then i'll come bck to tell u what's going on today darmatically and traumatically. (:
so see you later.

Silence Scream.

Hey guys, just keep you updated (:

Updates:

1. Going through exams now. one down, two more to go (:
2. Having a long six weeks vacation. Planning how am i gonna fully use it.^^
3. Staying at JB now, so currently can't make it for the outings in sg.
4. Developed a sleeping disorder, now my average time to head in bed is about 2am. sigh.
5. Growing a little bit of unwanted fats. haha. due to my non-stop eating mood. I had gain 2kg.
6. Decided to go for a further treatment for my skin in MountE. (wanna know more ask me (: )
7. Finding part-job for vacation, and seeking tuition kids.

I have a lot to tell, but just no time now, and all my thoughts are flying all over the place, i need to collect them back 1st, so will see you again after my exams ya (:

My fruitful week (:

Greetings to my readers (: I'm sorry that i had neglected my blog these few days. I'm really lack of time to sit in front of my pc to blog. So here i'm, stealing time to keep you guys updated for my week in sg (:

Sunday (26th Jul)
Woke up early in the morning to wash my clothes and did some housework. Practised piano for more that 3 hours and headed to custom with Julia and blessed by uncle that gave us a ride to sg home and to school at half pass three in the afternoon to catch a performance from our beloved SP Symphonic Band. I could only say they're really talented and hardworking musician, really salute them, they blessed me with many nice pieces, but out of so many, sea of wisdom is my favourite (: This is the concert that i able to attend. Since, hillsong, Li Yundi's concert tickets all sold out, so this is my very first concert in sg of the year. haha.

Monday (27th Jul)
It's the day of the week that i'm really not looking forward. drag my feet out of the bed difficultly and headed to school reluctantly. Yeah, it's monday, gonna work like idiot again. haha. Is just like my usual monday from 8 to 5 class, dealing 4 hours of Eng Maths... Bt somebody said a very different discruption of me till now i still cn remember. "Hey, Shannon, you're really soft spoken and good temper le..." I was like... =="... then i break into long and a big laugh. haha. You mean soft spoken and good temper related to Shannon Loh Qing Ling arr? are you sure or not? I replied "Thanks for your compliment, bt do you know that, no one ever said i'm good temper after they been with me more than 3 months le, haha, maybe soft spoken, yes, bt not the good temper" hahaha. hey, it's because you don't know me, man!! anway, I believe that God's doing a changing and good work of shaping as well as sharpening my character. So maybe nxt time I cn be the one that when you talk about Shannon, It'll link straight away to soft spoken and good temper. haha. hope so...

Tuesday(28th Jul)

Our beloved sis Jia Jeng flied off to India, All the best to her (:

PEEE Trainer.

Yeah!! It's Tuesday, class starts at 10.30pm. Bt i gonna reach sch at 8, to discuss my project work and debug ti see whether the circuit that designed is working or nt. Labtest is coming soon again. So gonna buck up the stuff that i'm blur in, especially the trainer. When i work on it, it always remind me the Lego that i played during my childhood time. I really hope i cn do well in this trainer just like how well i did in my Lego toys. haha. Yup, again rushing to attend ensemble meeting right after class, practise viola for 1 hour and 15mins then rush to CF. Tuesday is all about rushing here and there, and i cn feel how Dash is dashing =P bt yet it's worthy and fruitful.

Wednesday(29th Jul)

Having two hours of DE practical class, in order to prepare to sit for Labtest on week 18. Although my body is sitting in the lab, bt my mind is on the track of the poly 50. So nervous and anxious. Joining my Cfers for prayer meeting before meeting with my teammates to go for the poly 50 run. It's really good to have a gang of brothers and sisters which can pray together with in the campus, the feeling is so different, no speak in tougues, no leaders nor members around, just come as a grp to pray for each other, for sch, for cf. Once again, it stir up my soul, restore the thoughts. I really thanks for the time that given to me, to rest in the arms of Him, just throw aside what is going on outside the cf room, bt just come to listen to His gentle voices. His words.

My teammates for poly 50 run (:

I'm proud to say that we managed to finish the long race. I took part for more than 10 running events and this is the one that i enjoyed the most and learnt something. When i was much younger, i learnt that every competition that i ran for is just to get a prize-win. Win is the only matter that i cared for. Win to pleased coach, captain as well as teammates and fill my self-proudness. Bt this time, winning to me is just nothing, all i want is to take one step closer to my teammates and to take my time to be inspired by God, and to learn what he want me to learn from this occasional event. Yeah, not to dissapoint me, there's something happened to create the oppurtunity for me to observe and to learn. During the run, our captain just suddenly disappeared and the entire team is very pissed off by his action and attitudes. Everyone is very angry, including me, because it's a relay run, lack of one person is a big burden for the whole team to carried on the race. So the angry me, continue the run with a very angry mood, so when i passed by the cornering track, Fuji (our Cf stuff worker) was sitting at a corner, singing christian songs and played guitar. When i passed by, He sang "still" my heart was melting with God's love and once again He reminded me not to be pressed to react like the majority world react, just one sentence from God set me free from my anger. The joy of my heart is redeemed, it's a joyful journey, ran with all my teammates and at the finishing line, together we celebrate. And every scene that happened momentary pause in my eyes will be the momentary occasion in my mind. I just love it, with all the ppl shout out my name to encourage me to run towards the finishing line, to pass the relay card to them, to encourage me not to give up. It's just like how we run on the journey of christianity. You're definately not alone. not been abandon, not been forsaken. He placed brothers&sisters in christ to cheer for you, placed good friends around to make you to show his overflowing love, placed the scene and situation in the right time of your life to grow spiritually, physically and mentally, placed all things around you to painted your life as colourful as it can be, How great is that, right?

I'm just loving it (:

Thursday(30th Jul)
Thursdays is busiest, tired, delighted, and satisfied. Had a very very long day, sat in the workshop planning my project work, debugging, troubleshooting, discussing...for four hours. But i enjoyed it, because i choose to sink in this field =P After the long day, i rushed to CF room to meet up Cfers to go for Stream of Praise (: but ended up, only my BSL is there waiting for me, the others all gone. haha, really thank him for his patience. Anyway, I not prepared to sit a the chapel downstairs and the whole night is like watching a tv show in church rather than worshipping. haha, now i know how important the LCD is, without lyrics i just simply cn't sing, cn't get into the mood of worship, but indeed God's touch me although i'm not prepared, i'm not really in kind of worshipping. He speaks, speak to this anxious heart. When they sang 恩典之路, I almost cry, but i hold bck. Yes, God is telling step by step, he is walking with me, holding my hands, step by step he will accomplish it, all the dreams, plans, step of faith, is my part to play, to step out, by faith. Don't be anxious, he'll do it, accomplish it, step by step just follow closely after Him. Yes, I need to learn to walk step by step, not running nor dashing, or skipping in my studies, in my relationship with people, in my ministry, in my family, in everything i do, just step by step, step out with Him, and He will surely guide you through. with all His grace, His love for you. Just believe it, the unseen.

Friday(31st Jul)
It's Friday!! My most beautiful day of the week ;) my heart just flied off to my home early in the morning. Taking lunch with dad is all i looking forward, when i was in sec school, i almost ate every lunch with dad, so eating lunch and talking to dad is like so common, bt now it's not common at all and i'm not gonna take it for granted anymore. Spending time to sit down with dad, talking all my craps and my week in sch, is most enjoyable conversation in a week. i really thankful for such a good parents that placed in my life,and I don't wanna be somebody's daughter but just theirs!

This is a nicer piece out of so many songs that Jasper shared them with me =P He said i'm very hard to pleased. of course.^^ i only listen to good musics. and most of them are christian songs and classical musics (: bt this one, i would like to share it here with the musician. hey guys, look at the cellist, he's awesome! the pianist's skill are excellent too. overall it's beautiful.

Hope you enjoy it, goodnight (:

No mistakes are final when you put it in God's hand (:

Dare to Dream.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams, live the life that you imagined.

by Henry David Thoreau

I'm actually gt attracted by this line of words but when this is filtered thru my spiritual mind, it gives me another version which is God's version. So let see what's the version of Him:

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,"declares the Lord, "plan to prosper you and not to harm you, plan to give you hope and a future"

All of the hope and dreams and plans,
You give me strength to live,
And faith to suceed,
I'll believe in You,
because You believe in me.

Iwanna live a life that's according to Your blueprint, not how i imagined it to be, not the plans that follow after my heart, but the dreams that you put inside my heart that's follow after yours. Yes, and Your promise will be to prosper. to prosper. to prosper.

Prosper. it's what i work hard for, but now He says "i'll give it to you, when a heart of faith that has on me and followed closely after mine (: "

Dare you to dream? Dare you to move?